Lasdun, James:Plague Years [from Woman Police Officer in Elevator (1997),
Norton]
"There is, it would seem, in the dimensional scale of the world, a kind
of delicate meeting place between imagination and knowledge, a point, arrived at
by diminishing large things and enlarging small ones, that is intrinsically
artistic."
---Vladimir Nabokov,
Speak Memory
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Sore throat, persistent cough ... The campus doctor
2
Tells me "just to be safe" to take the test.
3
The clinic protocol seems to insist
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On an ironic calm. I hold my fear.
5
He draws a vial of blood for the City Lab,
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I have to take it there, but first I teach
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A class on Nabokov. Midway I reach
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Into my bag for Speak Memory, and grab
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The hot bright vial instead. I seem at once
10
Wrenched from the quizzical faces of my class
11 Into
some silent anteroom of hell:
12 The
"delicate meeting place"; I feel it pounce;
13
Terror---my life impacted in the glass
14 My
death enormous in its scarlet grail.